17 September 2017 @ 07:48 pm
all that a stranger would see is one girl, swaying alone, stroking her cheek  
doing A LOT better already on the physical health front. probably going to ignore fic/poetry for the next couple days though - my brain is still not 100% online.

in random: lately, the only way i can fall asleep is by constructing fics i'll probably never write. why do i do this. help me.

my soundtrack for the rest of the year, most likely: tswift's reputation, halsey's hfk, melanie martinez's crybaby, and lorde's melodrama. (might add an album or two from my backlog of to-listen ani difranco or andrew bird or fiona apple, but then again, might not.)
 
 
Current Music: Liability - Lorde
 
 
16 September 2017 @ 04:33 pm
Trick or Treat 2017 Letter  
So, this is my first year doing the Trick or Treat exchange, and I'm happy to be giving it a shot. :)

I like all sorts of fic, so I'm pretty flexible! Also, I like both happy/fluffy fic and pretty dark stuff, so feel free to go in whichever direction you want. I don't mind unhappy endings. I have some favorite ships, but I also enjoy gen and friendship fic just as much.

I'm not very good at coming up with prompts, and it's hard to get a balance between including proper prompts and having nothing. I tried to include some things that I like/would find interesting about the characters I requested, but feel free to ignore or use that as a rough guideline.

General likes:

- Friendship fic
- Character studies and backstory
- Smut
- For porn, things I like include like anal sex/play, spanking, power play, slavefic, A/B/O, BDSM AUs, humiliation, and watersports. I like both consensual and non-con/dub-con interpretations. Also, I'm cool with a lot of kinks written in a way that's not explicitly sexual, like spanking as non-sexualized punishment or A/B/O worldbuilding. I'm also happy with vanilla smut, though!
- Darkfic/art
- Humor
- Loyalty kink (one character is very loyal toward and cares for another. Recognition of that from the other character can be nice but isn't essential)
- Pining (mutual or non-mutual)
- Enemies becoming friends/lovers and maybe not completely trusting each other
- Characters getting a break from their usual routine, like going out
- Bonding and unexpected friendships
- I love Halloween, so if you want to do something Halloween-themed, I'm definitely game!

Some specific likes for tricks:

- Body horror
- Tentacle monsters
- Gaslighting/manipulation
- Mind control
- Frightening visions/hallucinations/apparitions (take of this what you will--could be ghosts, hallucinations, telepathy, etc.)
- Characters not trusting their own perceptions/questioning reality
- Hauntings/ghosts
- Stockholm syndrome/lima syndrome

DNWs:

- Explicit underage sex
- Character bashing (characters being criticized or made fun of a bit is fine. I just like it to feel fair or good-humored)
- Animal abuse

Fandoms:

X-Men (Alternate Timeline movies)

Characters requested: Erik Lehnsherr, Ororo Munroe, Hank McCoy, Jean Grey, Charles Xavier, Peter Maximoff.

Some of my favorite pairings are Charles/Hank, Charles/Erik, and Jean/Ororo, but I'm pretty flexible on that. I also really like team interaction, solo gen, and friendship.

Some prompts/things I like:

- Anything related to the school. Maybe Charles and Hank running the school together, or one or both of them interacting with students in general. Or Jean or Ororo in a school context. If you want to go with a Halloween theme, maybe the students want to celebrate Halloween.

- Hank taking care of Charles or being loyal to him in general.

- Hank and Charles navigating being in a relationship.

- Hank adjusting to his Beast form, or dealing with challenges related to it. How does it affect his life, either physically (ie, does he have a hard time working in his lab at first because he's not used to his new hands?) or mentally/socially (he must have had to stay in hiding before he developed the serum and before mutants became mainstream). If you pair him with someone, it'd be interesting to see the sexual implications addressed--like, does he worry about accidentally hurting his partner with his strength or his sharp teeth?

- Jean and/or Ororo learning to control their powers or playing with them (whether it's harmless or not is up to you).

- Charles relating to Jean as a telepath and seeing himself in her.

- Jean and Ororo being friends.

- Ororo adjusting to life at the school and in the US.

- Ororo having a crush on Jean (either requited or not).

- Charles pushing the ethical boundaries of telepathy. This could be anything from occasionally influencing people for convenience to something darker like holding someone prisoner using his powers or altering their memory in a major way.

- Anything related to Charles being a telepath, in general.

- Peter getting more involved at the school after Apocalypse. Maybe the younger kids look up to him and he's not sure what to think about it.

- Peter's criminal activities and thrill-seeking behavior.

- Erik finding out that Peter is his son. Up to you whether you want to take it in a humorous or more dramatic direction. I would be all for Erik being exasperated by Peter and them having some fun father-son interaction, but I'd also enjoy a more serious take on how hard it might be for them to figure things out.

- Anything about Erik's time with his Brotherhood in between XMFC and his capture. How did he get along with his new friends/followers, especially when most of them had been following Shaw? What type of leader was he?

- Anything about the effect that Erik's time in prison had on him, or how he was treated. Go as angsty or dark as you'd like.

- For Charles/Erik, I like in-universe stuff or AUs where they have their powers. I also have a fondness for bottom!Erik (and, in A/B/O, omega!Erik), but I'm not particular on that by any means.

Alien Series

Characters requested: David 8, Elizabeth Shaw, Meredith Vickers.

In addition to gen, I really like David/Elizabeth. I'd also be interested in seeing more David/Vickers.

Some prompts/things I like:

- David/Elizabeth, especially if Elizabeth never quite trusts him. I'd be interested in seeing them relate to each other without removing the conflict between them.

- AU where Elizabeth gets a different ending (for better or worse).

- Anything about what happened leading up to Elizabeth's death.

- Elizabeth was alive to see the Engineers' planet (and learns what David did).

- Elizabeth's life/career on Earth before Prometheus.

- David learning more about the Engineers' practices and technology. When did he decide to destroy them and carry on their experiments?

- David's twisted ideas about creation and life.

- Backstory about David's life with Peter Weyland. I'd also be interested in David/Peter Weyland if you wanted to take it in that direction.

- Vickers' life and background before Prometheus. I feel like there are a lot of questions about her, especially in regards to her relationship with her father. Was it well-known that she was Weyland's daughter? What was the source of the conflict between them?

- Anything about David and Vickers' relationship and rivalry, and how they saw each other.

- David/Vickers. Maybe they have hatesex. Maybe Vickers takes out her anger on him. Maybe one or both of them worry about Weyland finding out and disapproving. Or maybe they relate to each other in some way even though there's also some resentment.

White Collar

Characters requested: Mozzie, Sara Ellis, Alex Hunter, Diana Berrigan.

Pairings I like with these characters include Sara/Alex, Sara/Diana, Alex/Kate, and Sara/Neal. I also really like team/friendship fic and characters working together, especially if it's an eccentric or unexpected combination (like Mozzie and Sara or Mozzie and Diana).

Some prompts/things I like:

- Mozzie's schemes, unusual interests, disguises, and conspiracy theories. Maybe he introduces another character to the Tiles of Fire movies, or comes up with a bizarre Halloween costume.

- Mozzie interacting with Diana and/or her son (maybe Theo can go trick or treating).

- I also really like Mozzie's friendships with Elizabeth and Neal, and his interaction with Peter.

- For Diana, Sara, and Alex, I really like that while they have different characteristics and strengths but are all very good at what they do and are highly-motivated. I like Diana's toughness and assertiveness, Sara's determination, and Alex's self-protectiveness. I'd love anything involving their jobs (or "job" in Alex's case), even if it's not detailed casefic.

- I also really like how Sara skirts the line between being on the law-abiding side and sometimes breaking the rules.

- Anything involving Sara's sister. I'm a little annoyed that there was never much closure in canon--even in the form of her explicitly accepting that there might not be a resolution.

- I like Diana's teamwork with Jones and Neal.

- Something post-finale involving one of the requested characters would be interesting. What do they go on to do?

- For something Halloween/horror-themed, maybe someone could find themselves with a cursed/haunted artifact. Or they could break into a haunted building.

Torchwood

Characters requested: Toshiko Sato, Suzie Costello, Jack Harkness, Ianto Jones.

If you go with something shippy, I ship pretty much ship everyone with everyone in Torchwood. I'm not a big fan of Children of Earth and I didn't watch Miracle Day, so I'd prefer something that takes place prior to that (or a canon-divergence AU).

Some prompts/things I like:

- Suzie's experiments with the resurrection gauntlet.

- Backstory and character study for Suzie. Why did she hate her father? How did she come to start killing for her experiments?

- Toshiko being smart and competent.

- Ianto's experiences with Torchwood One and trying to save Lisa.

- Jack's backstory and years on Earth as an immortal. Also, his missing memories from his time as a Time Agent. If you wanted to go a darker route, I'm interested by the implications that he's done some pretty dark things, both that he remembers and doesn't remember.

- My favorite episodes are Cyberwoman; Countrycide; Greeks Bearing Gifts; They Keep Killing Suzie; Kiss Kiss, Bang Bang; Adrift; and Fragments. I love fic based on those.

- Alien tech gone awry (either in a light-hearted or dark way).

- People coming/going through the Rift.

- Aliens. And sex involving aliens if you wanted to go that route.

- Anything involving the Year That Never Was and the effect it had on Jack or on the team.
 
 
 
 
16 September 2017 @ 10:29 am
Heroic, funny, sexy - 20+ icons of fictional redheads for redheads20in20  
Intro text to follow...


made for Round 12 over at [profile] redheads20in20 (LJ). Enjoy!

20 (or more) shades of red... )



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~ If you wish to personalize because you have PS and more font or fx options than I do, by all means please ask first.
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Current Mood: accomplished
 
 
14 September 2017 @ 04:59 am
Love And Revenge - Masterpost  
Written for Round 1 of the Harlequin Big Bang over at [community profile] story_works. Inspired by the following prompt: “Character A is a famous pirate captain. His only goal in life: revenge. He wants to ruin to man who ruined him. One day Character B falls into his hands. He’s the son of the man he’s sworn to ruin. During the next weeks and some difficult situations, B feels more and more desire for A. Will he be able to make A forget his revenge or will B even help him?” Of course, my mind immediately went to our favorite cop / thief duo, though this time, the tables are a bit turned ;) Enjoy!

Warnings: Character Death(s), Graphic depiction of violence, mention of rape (of a female character) and of implied underage rape (of a male character), Period-typical racism, sexism and homophobia

Not betaed at the moment, and still in progress. I will add chapters and fix those already posted as I get them back from my lovely beta [personal profile] sherylyn.

AO3
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
10 September 2017 @ 06:04 pm
Chris Gethard: Career Suicide.  
IMDb calls this a "comedy documentary". UNDERSTATEMENT OF THE CENTURY. The tagline is a much better descriptor: Comedy can be found in the darkest of places.

Chris Gethard talks about depression and alcoholism and suicidality, and manages to be funny and empathetic at the same time. I did not once feel like the butt of a joke while listening to him. That is an amazing feeling.

The emotional rollercoaster he takes you on is very much like the one you board when you open your Tumblr dashboard - one minute, he's telling you about some of the worst times in his life, and the next, you're laughing along with him. It's one of the best things I've experienced. This AV Club review says it all better than I could.

If you're so inclined, check it out. I think it's worth your time.
 
 
10 September 2017 @ 01:59 pm
podfic: one thousand cranes by hoosierbitch  
content notes: major character death, grief

find it at: ao3 || tumblr

read the fic at ao3

this is my first podfic! please be kind c:
 
 
Current Music: Filters - EMIKA
 
 
09 September 2017 @ 09:22 pm
t swift, you're on FIYAH  
1. This reaction video to T-Swift's Look What You Made Me Do. I understand the point of view of everyone in that video. The only thing I have to dispute is that pop music can ABSOLUTELY be revolutionary, Dominic. And T-Swift is pretty revolutionary right now.

2. ...Ready For It?, T-Swift's new single. ALL THE LYRICAL COMPLEXITY i wanted from Look What You Made Me Do is here. T-Swift has not changed god bless. also. THAT BEAT.

3. This mashup of Tag You're It by Melanie Martinez and Look What You Made Me Do by Taylor Swift. The beat is SICK, Melanie adds some much needed lyrical intricacy, and everything is amaze. I am SHOOK.

BONUS: Halsey - Bad At Love (stripped). So much good music coming out right now, guys, I can't handle it it's too beautiful.
 
 
Current Music: ...Ready For It? - Taylor Swift
 
 
08 September 2017 @ 09:59 pm
HI HELLO WHATUP  
my tumblr is still making explody noises. i have no idea what's going on there. i'm just gonna roll with it and keep on writing for myself and keep on keeping on. (for interested parties, i write into the tumblr queue, and one poem/prose piece/art-ish thing goes up at 11:00 pm every day my time. i'm trying to keep it consistent.)

I feel SO HECKIN CREATIVE right now, guys. I have a few DIY projects lined up for the weekend and I am EXCITE.

i need a better diana icon.

i've finally finalised my podficcing/fanmixing AO3 pseud! it is lullabyforahelix. (in which helix refers to the rim of the shell of your ear. this is a real thing!) i might start posting to it this weekend. (keeping the might there just in case shit hits the fan. i have something recorded and almost ready to go, though!)

i'm still limiting my /fic ao3/dw reading page/ access, and not being very active in either place. i'll get back to normal soon though. the important bit is keeping this creative energy alive.

omg. i'm happy, you guys. *falls off chair*
 
 
Current Music: Wanted You More - Lady Antebellum
 
 
06 September 2017 @ 05:15 pm
Going dark for a bit.  
Very nearly burned out. Going to finish femslashex letter, then not going to check dw/ao3/tumblr for the rest of the week. If you need to get in touch with me, email would be ideal.

See you this weekend.
 
 
Current Music: Pulaski At Night - Andrew Bird
 
 
 
06 September 2017 @ 04:19 am
and maybe the most that we can do is just to see each other through it  
Didn't get any sleep tonight either :/ Must talk to doc about this. Sleeping every alternate day is not healthy.

I uploaded icons! And deleted some icons! I now have icons of Root and Shaw and Dottie and Lauren. Shaw is the BEST. <3

While I'm awake, I may as well talk about this thing I was going to talk about tomorrow.

I've started betaing for a friend again, and this makes me notice little sentence structure/composition things more than usual. Take for instance the following lyric from Hour Follows Hour by Ani DiFranco:

"Too much is how I love you, but too well is how I know you."

Now, I've listened to Hour Follows Hour at least 200 times, and all I've done is notice the interesting structure of this lyric and move on. But today, I parsed it on a more conscious level. The basic information it's conveying is "I love you too much, but I know you too well." AND YET. The two are not equal. The version I wrote above doesn't have the emphasis on "too" that DiFranco's construction does, which COMPLETELY changes the way you parse this idea. In my version, the primary focus is 'love' and 'know' and the conflict they create. In DiFranco's, the focus is on "too", which means the point you're focusing on is the excessiveness of the love and knowledge, not just their relationship or their existence.

In conclusion: Language is awesome.
 
 
Current Music: Hour Follows Hour - Ani DiFranco